Elliana Kate~
We want to share a video of our daughter, that combines our pictures, momentos, and love we have of her little life. We share it today, on National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. We want to talk about her story, and our story, through our blog in coming weeks and months.
Click her name below to open the video:
Elliana Kate
I want to share my story with you but not publically on facebook.
ReplyDeleteAt 6 months. the pregnacy was going well. We had gone to the grocery store and bought some logs to put in fireplace as it was a chilly November night. I bent over and felt a pop. when we got home, I flet and the amnionic sac was out I pushed it back, called the dr and he told me to go to bed and come in the next am. I was put in hospital and on bed rest. I was leaking fluid. On Monday mornig, I went into labor and my son was born. He was whisked away and I never saw him. 36 years ago if I had asked to see the baby, I would have been taken to psyc center.I was moved to the end of the hall and hardly anyone came into my room.I could hear the baby beds moving down the hall to mothers who had a baby they could hold. I had no support form nurses, doctors and even my husband. I heard "you are young, you can haveanoterh". to show any emotion was "bad". so I held it allin and cried when alone. No onementioned it. When I returned to work, a friend who was due at the sametime flaunted her pregnancyand the work shower was almost unbearable.
After this, I had 2, possibly 3 more early miscarriages. ihad a 4 yr old, but I wanted to love another baby as much as I did her. finally I got pregnant and ended up on bedrest for 3 months. had a healthy baby girl and today she is 33 years old. I also had another pregnancy and had a stitch putin my cervix. My son was born at 31 weeks . the stitch held, but I had abrupto plancenta. He was a little over 3 lbs/ he is now 31 but has a number of problems. He has CP, is autistic and has some delayed areas but he is a joy to me and he has made me what I am. I love him.I will alwys have someone who believes in santa. I watch him enjoy the simplest things.I try and see things as he sees them and it makes me feel differently. He has made us more compassionate and appreciate simple things.
One of my best friends has a daughter who is my son's age.We met at a paretn group. we have been friends for 26 years. We take atleast one weekend a year and go on a girls weekend.Once when we were talking, we both said we were not sure we would wantit any different.It has shaped our families.
Thanks for giving me an opportunity to talk about this!
Thank you for sharing this. What a blessing your testimony is. These stories always touch my heart. God redeems all things for our good and His glory! Praise Him!
DeleteSo beautiful, Chasity. I cried through the whole thing. What a blessing to have those memories. I love that you cherish every second. Thank you for sharing this with us! Hugs to you!
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